so, this is the thing i have right now: should i say what’s on my mind?
i honestly don’t know anymore… i mean, just because i said something, doesn’t mean i’m angry. it’s a statement of what i see happening.
sometimes i wonder if i am real. if i do exist but then again i can feel, i have thoughts flowing right now, and then i think, i feel pain and hurt and i have feelings. because i am human.
yet, why do i feel like this, in apathy, not really motivated in my life. although i graduated with an associates degree i feel like it doesn’t matter how much i try, it’s not good enough.
why? because when i try, it doesn’t matter. people only notices my mistakes, why can’t they see everything else? why can’t they see the good you do? why? and then that irritates me. so much expectation yet why can’t they accept what’s in front of them?
i mean it. society creates these images that humans who are normal, are purely perfect but no! as humans we make mistakes and that’s what really makes us normal beings. i sometimes think that i want to say what i want to speak but can’t.
it’s not easy because i grew up learning that when you speak your mind, people call you names. i also learn that people don’t like hearing the truth. no one likes to hear the truth because it hurts.
people now a days (October, 7, 2013), do not think about other’s people emotions and how they would feel if they were in the same position the person is putting them. how would you feel if someone cancelled on you when their long time friend decides to show up? it’s one of those feelings where you just think why today? when it could of happen some other time. but that’s life.so, just going with the forgiving but remembering phrase.
life is never as it seems. it’s always bringing surprises when you least expect it.
*sighs* oh well, i can’t do anything right? since i’m not selfish like that, and i wouldn’t like their friends to think that i’m the one manipulating someone whose not themselves anymore.
guess life only give us things to be proven about. like obstacle that stands in our way and how we deal with it counts so much that we don’t even realize how much. it’s learning to adapt with how things are, in different situations… that makes us who we are as human beings. so, i’m guessing i learned alot growing up in a ghetto neighborhood as a child.
guess, it’s the one reason why i don’t speak my mind freely. hm, or should i say what’s on my mind?
-Progression by Vertigo
i seen some people’s tumblr style page dashboard and i’m impressed on how it looks. my style is simply formal and not impressive as i seen others.
is there any websites that help you create the style for your tumblr? any links i can use? any recommendation is welcome.
i want to have a dashboard that’s created by me but i don’t know how to change the style or what sites to use to create something more impressive of a dashboard.